Monday, July 6, 2009

Thoughts from an overworked Mama

I've been rather light on the posting lately. I've discovered that if I leave the computer off at night, I sleep much better. And sleep is pretty important. Imagine that...

I haven't posted any Weekly Winners in the past few weeks, though with the exception of this last weekend I've continued to take lots of pictures. Even though it was a holiday weekend, sometimes you just have to put the camera down and be part of the festivities, you know?

I'm trying to stay more focused on my family and my life and less focused on the stresses of work. Its sort of hard to do, given that I'm at work so much of the time, but being aware of where my attention lies helps quite a bit.

I've been reading a lot, which is something I tend to do when I get stressed. Every chapter is a break from my reality, an escape into someone else's problems. Sometimes its nice to see something outside of your current "walls" when you just can't get away otherwise.

I've been meaning to re-design my blog for some time. The orange and brown get pretty drab after awhile, and I want something new - fresh - snazzy. (Yes, I am 106 years old, thankyouverymuch.) I have lots of good ideas bouncing off the insides of my brain, but just no time. Maybe a "remodel" will inspire me to love this little corner of the blogosphere a bit more. Eh...

I've been a sucktastic blog friend, too. I continually have more than 1000 posts in my reader at any given time, but I no longer feel too panicked about them. Much online bloggy love to y'all, but I read what I can and when I can...I think for a long time I got too sucked into my online world and there's just no good way of keeping up and that made me feel unnecessarily anxious. Like if I wasn't reading posts or tweeting with just the right people I'd be left out. That's just stupid. Besides, its a bit more important for my kids to have clean underwear.

I've been getting out of the office when I can for lunch or for a break. Today the weather is just PERFECT. Warm, but breezy and not hot. There are a few scattered unthreatening clouds in the sky...just enough to provide a noticeable shift in temperature and a bit of shade when those clouds cover the sun.

I sat on a park bench for a bit, reading, just now. I slipped my shoes off my feet - you know, those lily white babies need some color - and when a dragonfly caught my eye, I turned my head to watch him fly away. Beneath him I saw the tiny sliver of grass between the bench and the sidewalk and I can't believe how overwhelming the urge was to feel that grass under my feet.

I didn't do it, of course. I felt silly just thinking about grass between my toes, so instead I put my shoes back on and walked down the block to get a sandwich. I can't remember the last time I was barefoot in the grass, or the beach, or really anywhere but in my driveway.

I think I need to plan a trip to the lake.

7 comments:

MYSUESTORIES said...

Clean underwear is over rated!

Secret Mom Thoughts said...

Hope you can get away soon.

Kim said...

You are like me.. redesigning the blog every three months.. :) And taking you time is extremely important.. but when will you have time to work on another blog..give me your secrets woman!! :)

Kate @ Life As I Live It said...

Hang in there Colleen. And suck up those toes-in-the-grass moments wherever you can!

Heather said...

I'm right there with you. I've been gradually paring down the feeds in my reader, in part because I have no time to read them all and also because I know there will be some folks whose blogs I'll want to follow after BlogHer. I've been doing the same thing with Twitter and have been weeding out the people who seem to only post about contests and giveaways. That gets a little tiring after awhile. I want a conversation not a commercial!

It Feels Like Chaos said...

We just can't do it all, all the time, can we?!! If I'm all caught up in one area of my life there are 100 others suffering!

Corina - Down to Earth Mama said...

I think I echo every one of the sentiments in this post today. I am reading more, not posting as much, and certainly not commenting on blogs as much as I would like. And photos. Oh photos. Well, since the computer glitch, I haven't posted any.